Here I am, closing in on 220, from 264. I have about 69 days until Memorial Day, when I will weigh in at 196. Here I am, still not seeing much. I want more. I want to be shredded, yesterday. Not necessarily so I can look good on beach and feel great going out all summer, but because I never thought I could dk this again.
The last 4 years have been so uninspiring. So just blah, at best. At worst, the last four years were damaging beyond measures I will never know. When you develop a fairly intense hate for yourself, things can go awry quite quickly. Now I got 69 days to look in the mirror and, for once, NOT think about how I should have just stuck with it when it got tough. 69 days to succeed, be proud, feel good.
So for these days I will be at the gym, every single day. When April starts I will drop may calories and go to one meal day of meat, eggs and goat cheese. While I do this, my cardio will go up greatly. I will walk 30-45 minutes daily and I will lift harder and heavier.
When it’s all said and done, I will then begin my journey from 196 (at most) and more than likely a bit skinny, to 196 and 13% body fat. I will add muscle. I will lose more body fat. Most importantly, I’m having a work hard, play hard, kick ass summer!!!
Food I’m eating now.
Ground beef 85-15
Shrimp
Eggs
Salmon
Steak
Liver
Sardines
Goat cheese
Hot sauce
Water…..
Let’s fucking goooooo!!! Start!!
Quiet Desperation 